bonkers

I saw Alice in wonderland last night and I think I had about three epiphanies in less than two hours (besides believing in 5 impossible things before breakfast)!

I've always hated Alice in Wonderland, thought it was too creepy and weird, I though Alice was a bit messed up and too innocent. I tried reading the book a few months ago and it was AGONIZING - I never even got out of the little room at the very beginning.

So the movie was with Alice at about 20, when she has lost all the spunk of her life and is about to marry a stupid boy (parallel?), so she has lost a lot of her ignorant innocence that I found so abhorrent and is a depressed girl trying to be a woman but who has forgotten who she is. The Caterpillar high on hookah gauges her progress on becoming the "right Alice" the one who can defeat the evil and wins the day. Alice must become herself again to save evryone, including herself.

I have lost myself in this stupid drama over an (apparently) stupid boy and am the "wrong eba" disappointing people and myself as I go through the old world I once knew not remembering a thing.

If only I had a mad hatter to believe in me - to bring me back (and it would be nice he were Johnny Depp :D)