I used to be a fish!

I was going to talk about a movie I saw recently, but it has been too long and it all seemed forced. Rent the movie ponyo.

I got pulled over last night for not having my lights on. I just smiled and said that I had just gotten the car and that I wasn't used to it yet.... I got off thankfully! But folks, this is not the first time I've been pulled over for forgetting my lights, even though when I saw the cop, I was sure they were already on.

goodness.

good prophet.

So the fight caused by Jeremiah brought about massive conflict, but then the beginning of healing. We talked, fault was admitted on both sides, and the roommate situation is stabilized.

I should have known naming my plants after such rocky prophets could be trouble. Jeremiah didn't bring totally good news to his listeners. It was bad bad news, with a happy ending. Thank you Jeremiah, and may this only be the beginning of our journey towards reconciliation.

By the way - what should I name my next plant? is there any book or character in the good book that had a totally awesome and non-rocky life? I'm coming up blank.... which I never noticed before :)

prophet

I have a plant named Jeremiah, he's therapeutic and he makes me happy.

Jeremiah has turned on me! He has secretly been housing a whole army of ants that have attacked my room and yet again turned my roommate against me.

door just slammed three times...cursed plant.

out of it

today is my day off, I stayed up late watching disney movies last night, slept till noon, took a long hot bath and went to walmart to buy a game.

I got back, layed around for a while, cleaned a little bit and then remembered.

It is St Patricks Day and I haven't even noticed!

Go green!

cruisin

I bought a 38 year old car yesterday. I think it is a wise friend for me.

My roommates and I have not been bonding or spending time together wich makes things tense when we don't clean up or say hello. BUT tonight I drove up in my sweet 72 LTD and my roomie wanted to go for a drive.

We cruised around the mean streets of Bolivar and went to Sonic for some cherry limeades. The cute carhop guy loved the car, and we got out and explored the massiveness that is my trunk, backseat, and hood area. This thing is a BOAT.

We got back in, honked at the sonic guys, and went home, happy and friendly.

This is a good car.

bonkers

I saw Alice in wonderland last night and I think I had about three epiphanies in less than two hours (besides believing in 5 impossible things before breakfast)!

I've always hated Alice in Wonderland, thought it was too creepy and weird, I though Alice was a bit messed up and too innocent. I tried reading the book a few months ago and it was AGONIZING - I never even got out of the little room at the very beginning.

So the movie was with Alice at about 20, when she has lost all the spunk of her life and is about to marry a stupid boy (parallel?), so she has lost a lot of her ignorant innocence that I found so abhorrent and is a depressed girl trying to be a woman but who has forgotten who she is. The Caterpillar high on hookah gauges her progress on becoming the "right Alice" the one who can defeat the evil and wins the day. Alice must become herself again to save evryone, including herself.

I have lost myself in this stupid drama over an (apparently) stupid boy and am the "wrong eba" disappointing people and myself as I go through the old world I once knew not remembering a thing.

If only I had a mad hatter to believe in me - to bring me back (and it would be nice he were Johnny Depp :D)

welllllll

I just got off of a very awkward phone call with someone that I care about, but they don't care about me.
I'm not all that great on phone calls.... I come off as mean when I really just want to show love. Its harder to show love to someone when they aren't showing any to you.

Isn't that what being a christian is about? I'm supposed to rejoice in this somehow and show massive love to this person. There is supposed to be blessing for my soul from this isn't there?

Loving those who curse you is harder than the gospels make it seem. I feel jipped, but at the same time I feel like I'm in on the joke. Jesus just smiles as the people agree, knowing that they don't know what is going to come at them as they love their enemies.

Well, I'm in on the joke, but I'm not laughing yet - that will come. eventually.

commitment

I'm mostly committed to not ranting on this sight now that I know I have a reader (hey Crystal!!) haha

thats all

swoosh

electric bill came today.

I feel completely justified in turning down the temperature any time I want to whether my roommates agree or not.

I start tonight.

brrr

I really wanted to come on here and write something that would make me feel a little better about what I wanted to do, the jazz I'm going through, or the anger inside, but when I sat down to write I decided I didn't want to share any of that.

I don't know why, its not like anyone reads this, but just in case they do, I'd rather share fun uplifting things.

There is a green metallic pig that sits on our windowsill that is forever referred to as the green armadillo. It has a pig snout and a curly tail, two little pointy ears and a very fat stomach, but somehow my roommate had never stopped to think that it might not be an armadillo. When confronted with the evidence, she wondered how she had ever thought it was an armadillo - case closed, right?

Every time I look at it now, I think of it as an armadillo. The power of suggestion? Or just an unwillingness to change? I haven't a clue, but I'm thinking of naming him Charlie.

scrumptous

I got a call from my old job today offering my three days a week which would certainly help me pay off my loans and get my car and such... BUT I turned it down. I didn't want my life to be about making money. I wanted a day off to devote to God, and it just didn't seem like an answer to prayer like I thought it would.

So anyway, people think I'm kinda silly for not taking the job - but that almost helps me know that it was the right choice - that its crazy!

I just believe that God is Crazy - and that's what I love most about him. SO - I love being crazy too :D