the color nine

can you smell it?

ahhh

I really wanted to write about all the great things (and terrible that turned out great things) that happened to me this week, but every time I tried to write them out the massiveness of the information overwhelmed me and I couldn't do it.

I do have to say that God is amazing :) I was dreading camp for weeks, thought I couldn't go because of work, freaked out not knowing anyone there, and then I got lost and stuck in the mud on the way there (very much like the first chapter of Perelandra!) before arriving at the camp and having a great and glorious time.

I just can't quite say all that he did, it would take away some of the magic of it.... but I was low, I was high, I won scrabble, I got burnt terribly, and ate some great food :)

bah!!!

grrrrrr

zut alor -

dang flabbitt

I'm hemorrhaging money and can't bring any in!!!

my religion

creek dancing
pond watching
bug biting
light listening
cry laughing
irony smiling

always living
always evolving

ho hum

I was going to talk about my new job but I was boring myself. I'll talk later when I have more fun stories :)

made a new friend and beat her in scrabble - always a good time... yeah thats about it - I go bridesmaids dress shopping tomorrow night, hoping to stay away from yellow!!

the more terrible the deamon

So I read the last few chapters of the great divorce yesterday (I was pressed for time) and I had forgotten how amazing that book is!! Everything I read just leapt off the page into my heart, my past, my soul - I'm tellin ya, CS Lewis was indeed a kindred spirit!!

And heaven is going to be so darn amazing - existence without sin - where joy always wins over sorrow and desire is free to run wild as lust is extinguished. Desire as a white stallion with gold hairs, carrying the man on toward the sun. Heaven is going to be even better than the book's heaven, and that simply blows my mind because I can not think of anything better than what that book portrays -

I love this God :)

crazy zone

I've been emotionally strung out recently!! But last night I got to go see my BFF for the first time in months, and that was really really nice - then I sneaked into a little pond and fountain area to have a nice long chat with the maker, and that was definitely worth the bug danger I was in :D

Now I'm double booked... I committed to a camp when I was working in Bolivar, but now that I have a brand new job I'm nervous about asking for a week off - only a week and a half away! I was hoping the problem would go away on its own, but sadly no. I'd feel terrible canceling, but I've been fired before for asking for a week off on short notice.

And I need to call my loan company - they haven't billed me since I changed my address - I spent an hour on the phone getting that right, but now I'm thinking it didn't work.

GAAAAHHHHHH!
breathe. its not that bad - its just the crazy zone.

successful day :)

I shadowed one of the waitresses tonight and it all went well! I'm still on training till Sunday, but I think its all going to work out well :)

One of the waitresses went to SBU, and we talked about Dr Frost - another one went to my high school - its been nice to have commonalities, very nice.

a n d.. I had a successful thrift shop run today - after years of complaining, I can now say that I have bought a pair of jeans at the Salvation army :) yay cheap work clothes!

ciao-

take the gun, leave the connoli

I love living in the city :)

Fiesta Italiano was tonight, a big bandstand festival at Zona Rosa, all for the Italian culture.

Great food, great entertainment - it was awesome!! Totally made me want to watch Godfather tonight, but I already had other plans... but definitely Godfather night asap!

and I finally ate a connoli! I love this city.

much ado about nothing

okay, so three interviews later and I have the waitressing job. The guy mentioned that they're really flexible with people having other jobs, so that's good, if I ever get a real job....

I start tomorrow during church, but I'm kinda relieved not to have to choose which sunday school to go to. For some reason, everyone wants me in their sunday school class! This is craziness - sunday school classes should be easy. At least I get to put this off for another week :)

I agreed to work a couple camps this summer, but now I'm thinking I should work instead since I just started this job. I feel bad calling the camp though - BUT I haven't heard from them in a while so I'm hoping that if I ignore this problme it will go away??

yeah - because that has worked SO WELL for me over the past year.

small victories lightly thrown

I know which little nobbie thingie in my car is the one to check on the radiator.

:D oh yes. I'm well on my way to being a mechanic...