student loans!!

they may be stopping me from journey man. Because I have a private loan, I only qualify for a deferment if I'm a doctor! I don't see how this is going to work, but I'm still sure it will all work out.

Don't forget to pray though :)

unemo

so, for a random update....

I'm looking into a part time job right now so I can get some funds coming in - I plan on working harder on a real job after that -

I still have half a case of Dr Pepper left :) Yay for self control!!

Just got back from my Grandma's house - I'd been avoiding her, but I had a really really good time there...

I'm actually getting busy even without a job -

and that's about it. I usually post when I'm emotional, so this was me being normal?

patience

I hate those songs that say that you have to be living your life now the way that you ultimately want to live your life. As if I my life isnt what I want it to be, that I need to change that tomorrow.

you can't always fix what is wrong in life. Sometimes things are beyond your control and all you can do is wait patiently for God to finish this part of life.

I don't know if I believe this or not - but I know that I cannot make everything better tomorrow, and I couldn't make everything better on my own if I had my whole life to do it. Our lives are impacted by other's choices as well as our own. We have to deal with what we've got - and sometimes a lot of crap settles in one place.

Here I am Lord - Send me.

scars

scars happen, and its okay! You have to be living to get scars, and hopefully they teach not to make the same mistakes.

But I'm scared of my scars - somehow I've convinced myself that the scars will stop me from ever moving forward in life. But that's silly. I've been collecting scars all my life - this one may be bigger and uglier, but in time I'll roll up my sleeve and proudly tell my story :)

on a lighter note, how have I never discovered the joy of buying sheet music from popular songs? I bought the piano part for "fireflies" by owl city, and I had so much fun playing it! I'm going to look into getting more of these. Maybe there is more pianoing in me yet!!

one more round

moved into kc today - left bo mo in the dust and had the perfect soundtrack :)relient k followed by superchick. A soundtrack in life is important. now for the life part!!

a time to sleep

its never time to sleep.

its always time to PARTY!!!

therein lies my problem. half the time, its time to sleep. my mind does not recognize this fact.

I'm moving back to Kansas City!

I packed my first bag tonight :)

This is a good thing.